About Me (aka Nothing Special)
4 bestselling books.
3 academic degrees.
2 decades spent traveling the world, studying under renowned spiritual masters…
I possess none of these things.
Hello!
I am nothing special.
aka: not important.
And that, weirdly enough, might be especially important.
You see – if your purpose for being here involves a better understanding of life – maybe even eventual dissolution of mind/ ego/ or problems… If you’re curious about becoming “nothing special” yourself… You’re very welcome to explore some of these otherwise very-average ideas from No One Special.
Can Nothing-Special Relate to Special?
Teachers. Gurus. Enlightened folks.
They all seem pretty special when I think about them.
So how can someone like me – nothing special – ever relate to someone like that?
Or… could it be the other way around?
What makes someone special? Is it an actual thing? Or does “specialness” only exist in the eye of the beholder? Do they think they are special, or do I?
I Don’t Know What I’m Doing (And I’m Pretty Sure That’s Honest)
You may have already picked up on this, but I’m not exactly certain of anything. Im pretty sure I am wrong.
Why only pretty sure?
Because if I were 100% certain that I didn’t know anything… well, that would be something I know. And I don’t. So I’m stuck in the sweet spot of uncertainty.
Which brings us to the obvious question:
So What Is This Site About?
Honestly? I have no idea.
But if you’d like me to pretend to know, I can offer this:
This site – like me – has a dualistic existence.
- Purpose One: Inform the reader what we’re doing here.
- Purpose Two: Remind the author what we’re doing here.
Think of MyndGuide as a kind of diary.
Me (in the present) sharing insights with me (in the future) about what me (in the past) discovered while exploring my mind.
When writing: this is my journal.
When reading: this is my guide.
And this is a guide – not a treasure map.
A guide is a loose interpretation of a possible route, one of many.
I do not expect this guide to be valued in any measurable way.
I’m not a professional writer.
Not a guru. Not a spiritual teacher.
Not enlightened.
Just… nothing special.
And that’s why the content here doesn’t need to meet any external standard or expectation.
(Future Me is welcome to re-read that line over and over as it’s important!)
A Bit of Backstory
It’s been many years since I first became fascinated – borderline obsessed – with the blurry borderland where we observe consciousness itself. I could see myself think, but was that, too, a thought?
So I have continued to go deeper and deeper and despite all that exploration, I’m slowly coming to a rather humbling realization:
What I think I know will never exist the way I think I know it.
Truthfully – I’ve learned the same lessons over and over again and I continue to learn them, still.
The most important lesson? Accept that I still have things to learn.
Slowly the puzzle is coming together, although I have no idea how big it is. And while I do change – little by little – some big life problems seem to fall away with time.
Or maybe it’s just my sanity falling away? I don’t know. Either way, I’m okay with it. Because I find myself embracing life more completely now.
So: goodbye to whatever I’m losing. I guess I never needed it anyways!
A Disclaimer (and a Fair Warning)
Some of the ideas you’ll find on this site will be completely abstract.
(Some of the things I say even confuse future me!)
But let’s all be okay with that. These are just words – clumsy attempts at pointing to something that exists beyond language.
Some of the ideas here may resonate with you. Others will seem naively simple, frustratingly complex, or just plain ridiculous.
That’s the beauty of personal experience. It’s as deeply individual as it is universally shared.
Just Please Remember – Knowledge Isn’t the Way Out
Knowledge won’t be enough. You’ll get some and want more, just to be sure.
“More” isn’t better (or worse, for that matter).
Not this site. Not the next YouTube video. Not that self-help book or spiritual retreat. None of it will “reveal the answer” you’re looking for because you can’t learn, collect, or think your way free from the desiring mind process.
Answers and problems both exist only inside the mind.
The good news?
You don’t need answers to be free of desire – you only need to realize you desire.
So Who Am I, Really?
Think of me as an entertainer.
This site is part of my practice.
I’m just having fun with it.
I know hope is not helpful, but I do hope:
That more people will turn inward for their own answers.
That they will explore and enjoy what they already have.
That they apply the tools already in their hands to gain a deeper understanding of experience.
And, that we all keep an eye out for how easily the “never-enough” mindset sneaks back into even our attempts to let go.
That’s My Practice
To recognize wanting when it happens. To real-ize mind process.
From there, I let go.
…and I aim to have fun doing it. 🙂
